The Pains of Unrequited Love.

There’s this guy who has already caused my heart terrible pain some years ago. He’d done it–TWICE. And yet, here I am.. loving him MORE now that we have come in contact once again. I am afraid of the day when he’ll LEAVE without saying good bye AGAIN. Yes. He left me before without even uttering a word. NO, we’re not lovers or whatever you call it. He’s a friend of mine. He’s my neighbor. We see each other some times even after he "LEFT" me, but we treated each other like strangers at that point. What I mean here by LEAVING is when he simply left me hanging.. when he just "disappeared’. SURPRISE, elai! And it was NO pleasant suprise for me.

Aaah. The pains of unrequited love. I loved him. But I guess he never loved me. Everything’s just ONE WAY. There’s no exchange.

It hurts me when he "shows" he cares.. because I wish that it is just I that gets that kind of treatment from him. He’s kind to his friends and is very friendly. Deep inside of me, I wish we were more than just friends. I mean, I don’t mean that I want him to be my boy friend… I feel like I’m still young to be involved in a romantic relationship… but, you know, I want him to love me. Ah, basta!

Here’s another song from Joey Albert that really struck me. I can relate to it. [Oh yeah, if you’re wondering why I said another song? It’s because "Tell Me" already hit me long ago.]

Friend of Mine
I’ve known you for so long
You are a friend of mine
But is this all we’d ever be?
I’ve loved you ever since
You are a friend of mine
But babe, is this all we ever could be?

You tell me things I’ve never known
I’ve shown you love you’ve never shown
But then again, when you cry
I’m always at your side
You tell me ’bout the love you’ve had
I listen very eagerly
But deep inside you’ll never see
This feeling of emptiness
It makes me feel sad
But then again I’m glad

I’ve known you all my life
You are a friend of mine
I know this is how it’s gonna be
I’ve loved you then and I love you still
You’re a friend of mine
Now, I know friends are all we ever could be

You tell me things I’ve never known
I’ve shown you love you’ve never shown
But then again, when you cry
I’m always at your side
You tell me ’bout the love you’ve had
and I listen very eagerly
But deep inside you’ll never see
This feeling of emptiness
It makes me feel sad

But then again
Then again
Then again I’m glad

Don’t you just love Joey Albert? She understands. Haha:)

This post is going nowhere so I’d just like to end it with another song–Forget About Me by Little Bit. The italicized phrases either hit me big time. Underlined phrases  mean the things that I am afraid will happen soon.

Forget About Me

Hmm
Whoaaa Oohhh
Yeahh

You Said It Wasn’t
Gonna Be Like It Was Before
Then It Happened Again
Pushing Me Back Out The Door
Thought It Would Be For real This Time
Love Me Forget About The Signs
So Now What Do I Do
Now, That I Know That We’re Through

Wish That I Could Move On
Can’t Let Go, It’s Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You’re Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I’m Trying To Escape
The Misery
Why Don’t You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You’re Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I’m Tired Of Cryin
If You Don’t Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me

Too Late, Sorry
I Didn’t Even Have The Chance
You Said You Were Happy
Baby, I Don’t Understand
Gave You Everything You Asked For
And Was Ready To Give A Lot More
I Would’ve Given The World
Right In The Palm Of Your Hand

Wish That I Could Move On
Can’t Let Go, It’s Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You’re Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I’m Trying To Escape
The Misery
Why Don’t You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You’re Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I’m Tired Of Cryin
If You Don’t Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me

Boy, My Heart Was True
And That You Can’t Deny
Don’t Be A Fool
And Walk Away From All The Lies
It’s Up To You
Cause Heaven Knows I’ve Tried
Tell Me You’re Still In Love
Yeahhhh Ohh

Why Don’t You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You’re Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I’m Tired Of Cryin
If You Don’t Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me

forgett about me..
oh baby oh

I really love you…